fiction : epilogue : frictionless

friction. and it suddenly pops into my head. what is friction? without it birds wont fly, cars wont go and nor will it stop. trees wont grow, fast things will never go slow, shoes wont die, kids will never cry. and if you look carefully, you'll find that friction is what made us what we are today. friction is the sole reason that we exist. when two strangers collided and the friction that caused made us what we are. friction is love. and friction is hate. friction is a form of energy. and love is energy.without friction we are ghosts. wandering aimlessly in limbo.

but there she is. like poetry. like a tornado. like an orchestra of fishes dancing in the sea. you know what i mean right? in those tv shows, where they show those sea critters floating around, damn thats pretty awesome right? and thats how i feel each time i see her. its like you cant stop watching her. you try to resist the temptation but you cant. its like eating ice cream on a blazing summer afternoon when your on a freaking diet. its that good.

anyways, thats just me. i dont know if you ever felt what i felt. im not really good with words. i treat my words like its worth a million bucks per syllable. i dont know why. part of it maybe comes from my old man.

..in utero..


the redeemer.

by aea aka the fake cow

im failing like ive failed a thousand times before
feels like im turning, when im right at the door
too busy trying to be someone that im not
lost all i had, cant find what i sought

they say live your life like your dying tomorrow,
make the most of this breath that we're given to borrow,
but how can i live when all i feel is sorrow,
there's a hole in my heart, and it feels so hollow.

is there salvation for the prodigal son
is there a place where he can hide and run
roam free without bounds on his feet
feel the air in his lungs, and a heart that beats!

the past is gone what's done is done,
i never saw the signs, too busy having fun,
and now ive find myself on the run,
in a race against time,where i lost and he won.

there's no use looking back and hope to rewind,
we must march on and try not to be blind,
keep strong and weary eyed, you'll see the signs,
and carry forth all the things that were left behind.

the moon and sun they will always shine,
until the end of days of all mankind,
its never late to turn back and be,
the very best of a man you can be.

because i believe in salvation of the prodigal son,
there is a place where he will never have to hide or run,
the truth will come it's just a matter of time,
and in the hearts of men it forever will shine.



so is this it?

taken at : Bromo Volcano, Indonesia



just writing some writings

it's really hard to write when you havent been writing for a really long while. so much has happened you dont know where to begin. i am a dead person. reborn every day. the person i am yesterday is not the same as the person i am now. and its impossible for the future me to experience the feelings the present me feels.

time moves on like an unstoppable train. i look around me and everythings changed. god, where have i been? have i fallen asleep? to see the people i know growing up, and to feel my self grow up, strikes fear in my heart. fear of uncertainty. of not knowing. because things has its way of malfunctioning at times when you need it the most.

sometimes, i feel so empty. i dont know where i belong? which place should i be? is this the life that i wanted? why cant i change? whats stopping me? am i sad? why am i smiling?

i feel so distant. so lonely in a crowd of people. what makes me sick is not that i dont know where to turn, i know its there, but im too weak to embrace it. and all i do is wait. its ironic you see, i hate waiting, but i kept on waiting.

whats next for me? are we really done? have we did the right thing today? because life(death) is just a breath away, you can never know which one is your last.

i dont know what more to say, till then, embrace it before its too late.


what should we do when...?

amazing lyrics. amazing song. amazing singer. amazing band. fak.

"The Ize Of The World" by The Strokes (First Impressions of Earth)

I think I know what you mean but watch what you say
'cause they'll be tryin' to knock you down in some way
Sometimes it feels like the world is falling asleep
How do you wake someone up from inside a dream?

Your mind would wander and search for its place in the night
Your body followed this feeling like following light
Once that your music was born it followed you 'round
And then it gave your activities meaning and let you be loud

You're sad but you smile
It's not in your eyes
Your eyeballs won't change
It's the muscles around your eyes

An egg to fertilize
A pulse to stabilize
A body to deodorize
A life to scrutinize
A child to criticize
Young adults to modernize
Citizens to terrorize
Generations to desensitize

You're dreams are sweet and obsessed
And your overworked
You're overtaken by visions of being overlooked
How disappointed would D.(ead) I.(dealistic) D.(esperate) I.(nventor) P.(ioneer) P.(hilosophers)
to see such power in our hands all wasted on greed
Am I a prisoner to instincts?
Or do my thoughts just live
As free and detached
As boats to the dock?

Just like when music was born
And detached from your heart
Is your free time to free minds
Or for falling apart?

Night after night
You turn out the light
You don't fall asleep right away
"Are we... are we done?"

A desk to organize
A product to advertise
A market to monopolize
Movie stars you idolize
Leaders to scandalize
Enemies to neutralize
No time to apologize
Fury to tranquilize
Weapons to synchronize
Cities to vapor-i

TAG TIME : some names form other names which form other names

Asyraf Elmiza Ahmad

2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers name)
Zaleha Ahmad

3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Ariffin Sampur

4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)

5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
Brown Bear (makan orG!!)

6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born)
Elmiza Batu Pahat

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Gray Orange (dah gray, nk oren plak. haha)

8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)

9.ROCK STAR NAME:(pets name, current street name)
aku x penah ade pet yg ak bg name, sedih la ni, haha, pki name gitar aku la, Si Merah Mojo

10. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
aku takde pet la... Karim Peserai , blasah je

11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus "izzle")

12.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)
asik pet je.. xde modal la tag ni.. blasah je name gitar aku satu lagi, Black Si Putih

13. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume, fav choc)
Happy Ritter's

14. WIZARD'S NAME: (last 3 letters of mother's name, first 3 letters of current job, first 3 letters of your zodiac sign and last 3 letters of home street's name)

15. PIRATE'S NAME: (fav actor last name, your 'pet' name, fav actress last name, add "Captain" at the beginning)
pet lagi... kau mmg xde modal la tag.. malas dah aku..

sekian tag dari sy.
terimakasih dari jantungmaniswanita krn mentag.

sy tag:
sumua org yang ade byk pet. kalau xde pet mcm saye. x payah jawab. wat pening pale je.


I Wish I'm Alex And You're Miles

The Last Shadow Puppets - Meeting Place

whoever's reading this. i am looking for someone i can get lost in the endless possibilities of music. i am looking for my miles. oh my miles where are you?



this one's called wholeheartedly. dah lame x menulis. tetibe terinigin menulis. dah ade chords and solo(not a solo actually, just a sequence of notes haha). tapi blom perfect.huhu. hanahird awk komen laa,,

in a purple dress she stares at me from a distance i see
she's standing there without a care in the world maybe
but then comes a man who took her hand
and it breaks my heart for me to see

now days gone by in a red dress she glanced at me
she's sitting there with tears in her eyes tell me whats wrong baby
''he left me for another'' thats what she told me
''it's alright , i understand, would you like to be with me?''

cos i will always love you
and i will always be true
and i will never break your heart
and together we'll never be apart
whole hearted ly
yeah whole hearted ly

in a purple dress she stares at me from a distance i see
she's standing there without a care in the world maybe
but then comes a man who took her hand
and it feels so good please understand

now that man is me, with that girl you see
once together, together we'll be
once forever, forever we'll be

cos i will always love you
and i will always be true
and i will never break your heart
and together we'll never be apart
whole hearted ly
yeah whole hearted ly

every inch, every corner of my heart
and forever you'll be a part


i love myself, haha

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


wahai blog. aku takde idea. tandus. (some random thoughts)

if life is supposed to be a box of chocolate. are we the box or are we the chocolate?
im not making sense. sense. what is sense? can anyone define it?
in this world, who defines right or wrong? who draws the line between good and evil? what does it take for someone to be labeled good or bad? his actions? and what or who or how our actions can labeled as bad or good? God makes the rules. and we as humans his creations must follow. if we don't we shall perish in our own man-made rules.

sometimes when im bored and lonely in my room.when theres no school.nothing to do.i would just pick up my guitar and practice.and think of phrases and words.and make them into songs.but i never write them down.out of laziness i think.or maybe im just not good enough.

dreams.some say dreams give you wings.it will make you fly.i dream a lot.but i never tasted the joy of flight.i cant see no wings on my shoulder.i wonder why?

destiny? do you believe in destiny? that everything is pre-determined in book somewhere in heavens? like when walk the streets at the place that im currently in.i see beggars.children, poor people sleeping on the streets. is it their destiny to be born in poverty? those poor little children. and what am i doing here? i was born in a well fed family. have i the right to be born like this? i pray to god that these people will not suffer anymore. that someday something could be done to change the world. i pray that i will live to see that day. where we all humans have equal opportunity to change our destiny and be what we want to be.

to all tyrants, opposers, corrupters, dictators who steals and suck the blood dry out of your people. i pray you burn in hell. and i pray you will see the day when you fall on your knees and you will feel the pain you have caused. the rights you have violated. your crimes. i pray that you will see them flash in front of your eyes. and it will be too late for you to repent. i believe the truth will speak for itself someday. as long as there are people who believe in it.

these are some really random thoughts of a dreamer. just a pawn in a game of chess called life. every move i make now determines my future. every choice, every word, every sin will find me in the future. i just hope i am strong enough for whatever comes, good or bad. in the meantime all we can do is work to improve ourselves. keep chasing the rainbow.keep chasing the dream. don't stop. never stop.

to dreamers and lovers.

in the end, love prevails.